Letter To My Son - Post 3

My Darling,

Sometimes I get scared that I love you too much. Already, you are such a part of my life. You are the thought that comes before everything I do, want or say. Sacrifices are so much easier to make when I think that they are being made for you. Your movements make me feel so wonderful. There is no other word to describe it. I sing to you, talk to you and share my dreams with you. I tell you about your family, my love for your daddy, the kind of son that we want you to be and sometimes my fears.

I anxiously await your arrival in the next 14 weeks or so. Sometimes that seems like such a long time, at other times, compared to how long we have wanted you, it seems like a blink. I keep remembering the following lyrics and I hum and sometimes sing them to  you, hoping that you would understand how precious you are to me. Lauryn Hill sang these words in dedication to her first born:

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off of you.
You'd be like heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived.
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off of you.

Pardon the way that I stare.
There's nothing else to compare.
The sight of you leaves me weak.
There are no words left to speak.
But if you feel like I feel.
Please let me know that it's real.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off of you.

I need you baby, and if it's quite all right,
I need you baby to warm a lonely night.
I love you baby.
Trust in me when I say: OK
Oh pretty baby, don't let me down
I pray.
Oh pretty baby, now that I found you, stay.
And let me love you, oh baby let me love you, oh baby....

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off of you.
You'd be like heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived.
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off of you.

I need you baby, and if it's quite all right,
I need you baby to warm a lonely night.
I love you baby.
Trust in me when I say: It's OK
Oh pretty baby, don't let me down
I pray.
Oh pretty baby, now that I found you, stay.
And let me love you, oh baby let me love you, oh baby....

I need you baby, and if it's quite all right,
I need you baby to warm a lonely night.
I love you baby.
Trust in me when I say: OK
Oh pretty baby, don't let me down
I pray.
Oh pretty baby, now that I found you, stay.
And let me love you, oh baby let me love you, oh baby.... 

I love you, Son. And one day, when you read this you may begin to understand how much I loved you even before I met you.

Kisses from Mama.